changing world

life without her, day 67

2010-08-19T12:09:00.000-07:00

today will end de day without her.... life shall move on.....

went down to look for her suddenly tonight.... lost control and make u piss off again.... but i promise tis is de last time.... after today i will call all my nonsence and bs... just hope we can stay as frene.....

this shall true make de end and i shall pray for ur happiness.......

end of amy and jeremy

life without her, day 65

2010-08-17T11:26:00.000-07:00

start of day 65.... hmmmmmm, i tot i could forget u.... i tot i could take u out from my mind.... im happy to say i cant..... i haf come to a decesion tt i wun do that.... u will forever stay in my heart and mind.....

i notice that im getting more and more paranoid...... whenever i see ladies who use the same bag, have de same hairstlye, wears the same clothes, anythings that reminds mi of u i will tot tt i see u.... i will be happy for awhile then when i know is not u, disappointment sets in and saddness comes after.... haiz.... im still hating myself for making u leaving.... i still hate myself for hurting u.... haizzzz

i miss the days when i can hold ur hands..... the days when i can hug u in my arms..... the day i waited for u after work........ the days i carry ur bag..... days when u puck my eye brows.... the u call mi angry pi and *g**** pig....... i miss ur smiles..... i miss ur laugh..... i miss u being cheeky to mi...... i miss u naggying at mi..... i miss ur everythings...... haiz

i will keep praying, pray that 1 day u will come back to mi.... come back to mi so i can love u correctly again......

I LOVE YOU DEAR, I LOVE YOU AMY

Jeremy Jevan
18 aug 2010 2:37am

life without her, day 60

2010-08-12T12:22:00.000-07:00

你....

辛福吗???

开心吗??

还好吗??

还恨我吗???

我...

不想你现在辛福!!!!

想你开心!!!!

想你过得好!!!

乞求你原谅我!!!!!

应为.....

我还深爱着你!!!!!!

life without her, day 55

2010-08-06T08:15:00.000-07:00

today is a sad day for mi and her.... a day tt both of us will nv forget.... a day tt i blame myself...

last year tis date i was able to be b ur side, tis year i can onli pray tt u are fine.... i hate myself.... i hate myself for letting u leave mi....

i hate de fact tt u haf sum1 wif u now... i hate it.... why am i not tt sum1 now.... why not a last chance for mi.... why....

i just can pray everyday, pray tt u will forgive mi and come back to mi...

i love u dear... i miss u so much....

life without her, day 53

2010-08-04T21:41:00.000-07:00

day 53, keep wondering how is life for u..... well all i can do is pray tt you are happie and i know tt u are.... im willing to gif up everything so tt you will haf a happie life.....

everyday i keep thinking, wad were ur feeling when u say u r leaving mi 53 days ago??? were u sad???? do u feel tt u cant let go??? do u still hate mi now??? r u still angry wif mi??? all tis tots kept coming into my mind.... nv a was a day u didnt come into my mind....

tml is a day both of us will rmb.... a sad date for us.... i hate myself, i brand myself as a failure.... i cant protect de 1 i love de most..... l hate myself for hurting you...

day 53 and nth changes..... i'll keep praying.... i hope a miricle will happen.....

Jeremy Jevan

祝你生日快乐 day without you, day 49

2010-07-31T09:04:00.000-07:00

我知道伤心不能改变什么那么~让我诚实一点

诚实~难免有不能控制的宣泄只有关上了门不必理谁

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面手机~让它休息一夜

难~想切歌切掉回忆的画面眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐~ 我想对你说蜡烛点了寂寞亮了

生日快乐泪也溶了我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你~带一点欠还要时间才能平衡

热恋伤痕画面重生

祝你生日~快乐

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面手机~让它休息一夜

难~想切歌切掉回忆的画面眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐~ 我想对你说蜡烛点了寂寞亮了

生日快乐泪也溶了我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你~带一点恨还要时间才能平衡

热恋伤痕画面重生

祝你生日~快乐

我祝你生日快乐
我爱你

Life without you, day 36

2010-07-18T16:12:00.000-07:00

it have been 36 days since you left me, no word can tell how much i miss u so....

past few days have been bz wif temple things.... doing this and that.... at least it keep my mind on something and it tired me out so i do fall aslp at nite....

everynight no matter how tired i can be, the moment i think of u i cant fall aslp... think of the days we are tgt make my tears roll down my eyes... mans do cry and everynight i have been crying....

few days ago, my friend ask mi, " Jer, it have been 1 month liao why cant you let her go from your heart. stop torturing yourself like this..."

i ans him back, "bro the reason is very simple. is because I Love her. I realise that my world goes wrong when i lost her....."

He ask me back, "Then bro tell me, when will you get her off your mind and heart???"

I tell him back, "bro maybe when the sun dun shine, when the star dun twinkls, when the world stop turning, and when i breathe in my last, then maybe i will stop loving her. But knowing myself , when that day comes bro, she will still be on my mind and in my heart cause i love her too deep and nothing can change that..."

I have been praying and hoping that 1 day you will come back to me. let me love and care for you and also feel your loves once more...

day 36 and i can onli pray, pray for you to come back to me dear.... I Love You Amy>>>>

life without her day 21

2010-07-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

week 3 already, haiz wad can i say.... there is nth more for mi to say....

i guess ur days without mi is completely different from mi.... u must be happie and xin fu.... if u r, im already happy for u... there is nth more important to mi now den to see u happy and xin fu....

i realli misses de time u are wif mi..... i can onli ask now y didny i teasure those time and why didnt i gif u the things u wan earlier....

i realli miss u alot.... my love for u will nv go away...

i love u dear....

Jeremy Jevan
4 july 2010 11:31pm

life without you day 14

2010-06-26T12:16:00.000-07:00

today is the 2nd week le, and the days are still counting....

i have since cool down abit but each day is still passing by painfully for me... well i deserve it.... i deserve all tis treatment from u now.... is karma... i hurt you so much wen u are wif me, didnt wan to reply ur msges, not wanting to call u..... now im getting tis all back from you....

i tot i can let it go easily, but i just cant.... i keep thinking of you.... missing all the days that u are wif me... miss ur looks, ur smiles, ur tears, ur anger, ur hugs and ur kiss.... i know i didnt teasure all these thing when u are wif me, not becuz i dun want to is becuz i didnt say and show it to u....

i love u dear.... i miss u so much.... i nv know i will fall for someone so deep, but i fall so deeply for u....

can onli pray, pray that u will come back to me... i reallu do...

I LOVE YOU DEAR.....

Jeremy Jevan

27 june 2010 3:25am

life without you, day 10

2010-06-22T12:13:00.000-07:00

on day 10 i found out u have sum1 new..... is like a knife cutting thru my heart.... why cant u just gif mi 1 more chance to love u again..... why just onli 10 day u have sum1 new.... i cant live anymore.... u have just sentence mi to death and i will do just that.... life without u, there is no point on living anymore.....

Amy i realli love u alot, but now i can onli wish that you are happie.... i will watch over u from above, bless u wif happniess....

Amy i love you....

Goodbye forever

23 june 2010 3:17am

Jeremy Jevan

life without you, day 9

2010-06-22T07:30:00.000-07:00

today is already day 9.... each day is getting worse and worse.... every night whenever u comes into my mind i cant slp.... i think of the days we are together, the sadness, happniess and quarrel i cant slp....

a few more hours to go and it will be my bade..... after 23 bdae, this year my 24th is the worse... i cant have u by my side.... and deep down i know u are hating mi.... hate me for giving u all the saddness and anger.... hate mi for not beening wif u when u needed mi to be ard.... for all this i hate myself even more.....

this year bdae wish is very simple for mi..... i just want you back with mi.... will my wish come true.... i realli hope it will.....

I LOVE YOU DEAR.....

22 june 2010 10.38pm
Jeremy Jevan

Life without you, day 8

2010-06-21T11:39:00.000-07:00

is already the 8 day.... till date today was the worst day ever.....

today shld have been a very happy day for us, well at least for me.... today shld have been our 1st anniverary.... even if you are in hong kong, at least i know we are still together.... at least i could have send u a sweet sms to wish u a happy anniveary.... but i cant...... that the worst feeling i can get....

i can onli hope that you will have a gd time in hong kong..... wish and pray that you are happy.... that is the onli thing i can do now.... PRAY.....

i still wan you to know that my love for you nv become lesser, in fact it grow day by day when you are not by my side..... i can onli pray, pray that you will see and feel how i love u and you will come back to me soon....

I LOVE YOU DEAR.....

21 june 2010 2:45 am

Jeremy Jevan

life without day 7

2010-06-19T13:14:00.000-07:00

this is already the start of the 7 day in my life without u by my side...... i wonder how long more will these go on.....

i rmb 1 year ago this date was the 1st time i met u.... i was celebrating my bdae and u actually show up and wish me happie bdae..... i rmb asking myself, and im so lucky to know sure a beautuful lady...... as fate let us met, it also let us become couple the following days.... i was telling myself that im a lucky man to have u as my gf.....

times comes and goes, and is already 1 year since met u, but the onli different is that u have already leave me...... i wish, i hope for these past 7 days that u will come back to mi.... let mi show u de love and concern that u always wan, keeps all the promises that i have made to u.....

today i can thanks nelson and ellen for celebrating a early bdae for mi.... i did have a great time guys but is still not de same and as blessful as having her by my side....

you shld have been in hong kong by now and i hope u have a wonderful time there, also at de same time pls take care of yourself too..... i realli hope u will let mi know wen u are back in singapore safely and things would have return to normal...

i will always love u dear.....

20 june 2010 4:27am

Jeremy Jevan

life without you day 6

2010-06-18T14:56:00.000-07:00

it has been 6 days living my life without u, i cant say how much i miss u.....

you are leaving for hong kong and i hope u enjoy your time time.....

today some of my frene suddenly mension where are u, the moment they mension abt u, my tears almost fall from my eyes.... all i can tell them is not to mension abt u as u are no longer by my side.....

why did i let this happen!!!! why didnt i show u de love de way i shld and u wan way way before tis happen!!!! how can i let someone so close to to my heart leave me becuz of the stupid mistakes i done!!!!!!

now i can onli pray and hope tt i will change to the man and bf u wanted me to be so tt u will come back to me.......

i hope that i can make u love mi again....

I LOVE U DEAR

Jeremy Jevan

life without u day 3

2010-06-17T07:59:00.000-07:00

hmmmmmm it have been 3 days living my life without u....... i nv tot living life without u is so unbearable....

this morning finally got a chance to see u after so many days.... i haf nv been happier to see u... thought the time was not long and we didnt tok much.... just a 7 min walk from the mrt station to ur office but is already enough for mi for now.....

u r flying off to hong kong soon hope u will enjoy yourself there.... do take care of yourself and hope u haf a great time there....

next monday 21st of june would haf been our 1st anniversary together and i was looking forward to celebrate wif u though u wun be in singapore but i can celebrate wif u early togther with my bdae....

this years bdae will be the same, alone.... how i wish i have not make all those silly mistakes and haf u by my side to celebrate our anniversary and my bdae together.....

hopefully u will be back wif mi, there is nth more i wan den have u by my side.....

Jeremy Jevan

life without you.....

2010-06-16T07:40:00.000-07:00

wow.... been realli like ages since my last entry..... didnt tot i will blog again but here i am doing my blog.....

past few days have been hell to mi, i lost someone important in my life..... in fact it was mi who chase her away... hot temper, stupid attitude, etc etc etc....

been trying to call her but she does not wanna pick up my calls.... i understand and know wad she wants but in side me i just can imagine life without her.....

tis times tgt we have been thru happie and sad days.... i know most of the time i make her sad and let tears drop from her eyes, truth is i love her but i show it the wrong way....

it true tt human will onli learn to teasure once they lose it, and now i learn it the hard way.... she had given mi chances after chances after chances but im just too proud to put it too heart....

now that she is gone i jusr hope that she will comes back too mi..... all those promises that i broke i will promise her i will keep it this time round.... all the tears she drop i will wipe it off her face and all de nighmare i let her go thru i will wipe it off her memory.......

i will change in to a better man, a better bf to her.... i hope that she will let mi do it for her.... i will change tis time.....

jobless since

2009-06-06T03:15:00.000-07:00

alot things happen since i last update..... no more in xw le....... haiz but is ok lah..... at least i dun ha to face all those asshole who i hate and but up a front....... they shld all go to hell.........
gd news is going hk soon.... counting down to 10 more days...... after back from hk is my birthday..... wwwwooooofoffffffff........ hope my brothers will rmb it and bring mi out....... hahaha....

Jeremy

after so long

2009-05-12T07:35:00.000-07:00

almost a year since i blog....... hmmmmmmmmmmmm...

alot haf change.........
ppl i used 2 believe in can no longer be trust........

im change too...... or so i hope......

Jeremy Jevan

LOng long ago

2008-10-20T10:49:00.000-07:00

have not been updating my blog....... so bz nowadays........ not forgetting stress...... is ok........... lifes goes on..............

Miss all my bro........... just text keith saying i miss going out wif the guys..........

oh well can onli 'REN'........................ And i will...........

Xin Wang Siglap

2008-08-19T09:33:00.000-07:00

Back in siglap for rhe 1st day...............

Nth 2 say loh...............

Freaking bored..... No ppl de.........

Bussiness was realli bad...........

worse of all feel so stress.......... Kenneth wans mi to improve de sales there........... haiz.......... am i up 2 it?????????

Haiz also dunno wad raymond is angry wif mi abt............

i feel so hurt.......... haiz......................

Nvm.....

i just do wad i haf 2 do...........

do all my best..........

Night 2 the changing world

32 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

2008-08-17T08:41:00.000-07:00

OMFG............. im awake for 32 hours straight................ work and work and work

Ganna slp soon liao.......... passing out soon..................

Night 2 the changing world....................

1st day

2008-08-11T12:02:00.000-07:00

1st day as a Asst Manager

nth much happen onli tis 2 asshole from china................

dun wanna tok abt it....................

1st day was fine as it is..............

tml off.................. must enjoy.............

WWWWWWWWWWOoooooooooooooooooooooffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

heated up

2008-08-10T12:49:00.000-07:00

getting alot of unwanted news.................... but life haf 2 go on................. is ok.................

WADEVER DUN KILL MI WILL MAKE MI STRONGER................................................

the world is round......... wads goes ard comes ard............................

confuse

2008-08-09T14:07:00.000-07:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

fucking jksgfyu giugh viegfiugvsgvisdg fkusgdv isgvig
figuegi giuwegf uisdgfiugfljdidigv
every1 seem to hate mi

Assistant Service Manager

2008-08-07T12:13:00.000-07:00

WWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally de time is here.....................

im promoted liao....................

woooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooooooo..........................

Time to keep up my standards....................

ASSISTANT SERVICE MANAGER JEREMY

1st blog

2008-08-06T13:47:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey....... my 1st blog............. didnt tot i will start 2 blog........ hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

well today just as usual......... onli diff is ...... IM ON OFF........ WAHAHAHAHAHA

went for movie wif henry @ cine............. The Mummy............. woot

it was nice just tt i onli had henry watching wif mi onli....... hahaha

well tml another day @ work.......... hope i will ger my gd news soon................