life without you day 14

today is the 2nd week le, and the days are still counting....

i have since cool down abit but each day is still passing by painfully for me... well i deserve it.... i deserve all tis treatment from u now.... is karma... i hurt you so much wen u are wif me, didnt wan to reply ur msges, not wanting to call u..... now im getting tis all back from you....

i tot i can let it go easily, but i just cant.... i keep thinking of you.... missing all the days that u are wif me... miss ur looks, ur smiles, ur tears, ur anger, ur hugs and ur kiss.... i know i didnt teasure all these thing when u are wif me, not becuz i dun want to is becuz i didnt say and show it to u....

i love u dear.... i miss u so much.... i nv know i will fall for someone so deep, but i fall so deeply for u....

can onli pray, pray that u will come back to me... i reallu do...

I LOVE YOU DEAR.....

Jeremy Jevan

27 june 2010 3:25am

life without you, day 10

on day 10 i found out u have sum1 new..... is like a knife cutting thru my heart.... why cant u just gif mi 1 more chance to love u again..... why just onli 10 day u have sum1 new.... i cant live anymore.... u have just sentence mi to death and i will do just that.... life without u, there is no point on living anymore.....

Amy i realli love u alot, but now i can onli wish that you are happie.... i will watch over u from above, bless u wif happniess....

Amy i love you....

Goodbye forever

23 june 2010 3:17am

Jeremy Jevan

life without you, day 9

today is already day 9.... each day is getting worse and worse.... every night whenever u comes into my mind i cant slp.... i think of the days we are together, the sadness, happniess and quarrel i cant slp....

a few more hours to go and it will be my bade..... after 23 bdae, this year my 24th is the worse... i cant have u by my side.... and deep down i know u are hating mi.... hate me for giving u all the saddness and anger.... hate mi for not beening wif u when u needed mi to be ard.... for all this i hate myself even more.....

this year bdae wish is very simple for mi..... i just want you back with mi.... will my wish come true.... i realli hope it will.....

I LOVE YOU DEAR.....

22 june 2010 10.38pm
Jeremy Jevan

Life without you, day 8

is already the 8 day.... till date today was the worst day ever.....

today shld have been a very happy day for us, well at least for me.... today shld have been our 1st anniverary.... even if you are in hong kong, at least i know we are still together.... at least i could have send u a sweet sms to wish u a happy anniveary.... but i cant...... that the worst feeling i can get....

i can onli hope that you will have a gd time in hong kong..... wish and pray that you are happy.... that is the onli thing i can do now.... PRAY.....

i still wan you to know that my love for you nv become lesser, in fact it grow day by day when you are not by my side..... i can onli pray, pray that you will see and feel how i love u and you will come back to me soon....

I LOVE YOU DEAR.....

21 june 2010 2:45 am

Jeremy Jevan

life without day 7

this is already the start of the 7 day in my life without u by my side...... i wonder how long more will these go on.....

i rmb 1 year ago this date was the 1st time i met u.... i was celebrating my bdae and u actually show up and wish me happie bdae..... i rmb asking myself, and im so lucky to know sure a beautuful lady...... as fate let us met, it also let us become couple the following days.... i was telling myself that im a lucky man to have u as my gf.....

times comes and goes, and is already 1 year since met u, but the onli different is that u have already leave me...... i wish, i hope for these past 7 days that u will come back to mi.... let mi show u de love and concern that u always wan, keeps all the promises that i have made to u.....

today i can thanks nelson and ellen for celebrating a early bdae for mi.... i did have a great time guys but is still not de same and as blessful as having her by my side....

you shld have been in hong kong by now and i hope u have a wonderful time there, also at de same time pls take care of yourself too..... i realli hope u will let mi know wen u are back in singapore safely and things would have return to normal...

i will always love u dear.....

20 june 2010 4:27am

Jeremy Jevan

life without you day 6

it has been 6 days living my life without u, i cant say how much i miss u.....

you are leaving for hong kong and i hope u enjoy your time time.....

today some of my frene suddenly mension where are u, the moment they mension abt u, my tears almost fall from my eyes.... all i can tell them is not to mension abt u as u are no longer by my side.....

why did i let this happen!!!! why didnt i show u de love de way i shld and u wan way way before tis happen!!!! how can i let someone so close to to my heart leave me becuz of the stupid mistakes i done!!!!!!

now i can onli pray and hope tt i will change to the man and bf u wanted me to be so tt u will come back to me.......

i hope that i can make u love mi again....

I LOVE U DEAR

Jeremy Jevan

life without u day 3

hmmmmmm it have been 3 days living my life without u....... i nv tot living life without u is so unbearable....

this morning finally got a chance to see u after so many days.... i haf nv been happier to see u... thought the time was not long and we didnt tok much.... just a 7 min walk from the mrt station to ur office but is already enough for mi for now.....

u r flying off to hong kong soon hope u will enjoy yourself there.... do take care of yourself and hope u haf a great time there....

next monday 21st of june would haf been our 1st anniversary together and i was looking forward to celebrate wif u though u wun be in singapore but i can celebrate wif u early togther with my bdae....

this years bdae will be the same, alone.... how i wish i have not make all those silly mistakes and haf u by my side to celebrate our anniversary and my bdae together.....


hopefully u will be back wif mi, there is nth more i wan den have u by my side.....


Jeremy Jevan

life without you.....

wow.... been realli like ages since my last entry..... didnt tot i will blog again but here i am doing my blog.....

past few days have been hell to mi, i lost someone important in my life..... in fact it was mi who chase her away... hot temper, stupid attitude, etc etc etc....

been trying to call her but she does not wanna pick up my calls.... i understand and know wad she wants but in side me i just can imagine life without her.....

tis times tgt we have been thru happie and sad days.... i know most of the time i make her sad and let tears drop from her eyes, truth is i love her but i show it the wrong way....

it true tt human will onli learn to teasure once they lose it, and now i learn it the hard way.... she had given mi chances after chances after chances but im just too proud to put it too heart....

now that she is gone i jusr hope that she will comes back too mi..... all those promises that i broke i will promise her i will keep it this time round.... all the tears she drop i will wipe it off her face and all de nighmare i let her go thru i will wipe it off her memory.......

i will change in to a better man, a better bf to her.... i hope that she will let mi do it for her.... i will change tis time.....